Arachnophobia

Well, that might not even be correct considering I haven't actually seen a spider up close and personal at all in the past.. Oh, 6+ months? But I am hallucinating them and it is driving me nuts!!

It all started on Tuesday night. I had some nightmare where I was going into this house via some mini-balcony, and I was warned that no one has lived here for quite some time, so when I opened the door, everything was covered in cobwebs.. A spider leaped at my face and I kept screaming. I actually woke up screaming. What a nerd. I woke up at least one member of my family.

Then on Wednesday, I was laying on a throw rug in my room, and some random bug that I have never seen before decided to lazily make its way towards me. I didn't scream or jump up and do a tap dance like usual. No one else was home. I just blew the bug away from me and went upstairs. I figure that if I remove myself from the situation, it will be better. The random bug can have my room. Gross.

Then this afternoon, I was doing the laundry, and I SWEAR there was some gigantic brown spider just waiting for me as I was sorting that white load. I stopped and studied it before I stuck my hand in there. Then I rationalized the situation.

1. I live in Saskatoon, SK, Canada, we do not have giant hand sized brown fuzzy spiders.
2. How would a spider survive all the washing machine cycles.
3. I am most likely going insane.

Once I got through those three reasons, I realized I was being a child and reached in and continued with the laundry.

I seriously have no idea why I am so freaked out by spiders right now. I mean, I am not a fan and I scream like a child when I see even those little itty-bitty-baby spiders and start a tap dance until someone comes to my rescue.. But why now?

Maybe because it was getting nicer out for a bit? No idea.. I better not see a whole bunch of spiders anytime soon.. I don't think my heart or mind could handle it!

Catching Up

In what exactly? Well.. In Gossip Girl. I know.. Silly. BUT! I kind of fell out of love with the show/I had to work and miss it every Monday and didn't bother catching up before.. Then I saw some ads for new episodes (finally).. It made me want to catch up. Super glad I did. The show is over the top, but I guess that is what makes it.. fun?

Annnnyways.. In other news, I worked a morning shift today.. I really dislike working at 7:15am on a Monday. It is probably as close to death feeling as I will get until, well, death. It just sucked more because I really didn't want to be there. I spose that is with most days..

I am reverting to my lethargic mode again. I sort of feel like I have placed myself on autopilot.. I basically do not remember too many things from the last few days.. I remember my Friday night with Gordo and such, but after that I do not really remember any thing else. So bad. I hope I can snap out of this asap. It only happens every few months, and I mean, I know the reason why, but that doesn't mean I need to necessarily share it. Lets just say I will be happier when autopilot is off!

A few days off here.. Will be kind of nice. I think I am actually going to try and do a few things tomorrow. AKA 'tidy' up my room. It is an organized disaster. I would rather it just be organized.

And sleep. I have been doing good the past few weeks.. No sleeping pills. I just need to actually allow myself to go to bed when I am tired instead of being like 'I'm tired!' *glance at the clock, see it is 10:30pm and think that is too early*.

I think I am going to head to my nest now. I want to finish the book Choke by Chuck Palahniuk.. I am pretty close but I usually pass out after a few pages. Fight Club was awesome, I just cannot seem to find any enjoyment in this book. Sadface!

Freedom

From work. For three days.

I am not entirely sure why I am so extremely tired this evening.. oh right, because I went to bed at 5am and woke up before noon, duh!

Also, work was extremely boring this evening. At one point I figured it MUST be nearing 11pm, it wasn't even 10pm. Ugh. I was done all my work super early, which usually isn't a bad thing because I always bring a book to read. Well, this evening I brought two and unfortunately I am stuck on both. I have read them both to points where I am not interested. I'll finish them somewhat. See, if I wouldn't be halfway done both of them, I would just not finish, but once you get to that halfway point you might as well see it all the way through. Me and my rules.

OH! But I am kind of excited about one thing.. Ok.. Two things!

First is I was chatting with the activities director because we usually do a big bake sale/sale/fundraiser sometime in the spring.. We're having it right at the beginning of May.. And I am not going to share any more details because things are subject to change. I said they should have the residents vote on who we fund raise for.. The resident meeting is next week. I gave my idea and so far it is the staff favourite, so we shall see what happens. I said I would look into doing some crafts and maybe a drawing.. Plus I'll do some baking for the bake sale as well.

Ok, the second thing ties into the first.. We were talking silent auction prizes, and I said 'I could draw something.. and maybe -insert resident name here- could frame it..' THEN I got to talk to said resident this evening and I asked him if he still did framing.. He said he did.. So I asked him if he could frame two of my pictures. These are two pictures that I am quite proud of and I want them framed asap before they start to yellow out or get wrecked. He agreed to take a look at them. On Saturday. Yay!

I should really just go pass out now.

I have plans with my bud 'Porter' tomorrow.. She mentioned maybe grabbing lunch before we grab a couple of flicks to watch. Should be fun. Then the only other thing I am looking forward to is my Friday with Gordo!!

Thursday is MY day so far. I plan sleep and stay in PJs all day. Sounds fantastic!

Santana DVX

Sorry, I couldn't think of a title and this little ditty from The Lonely Island happens to be playing.

I decided to delete my other entries (all 3 of them, be alarmed) because.. I am not sure, maybe so this can just be a blog for the sake of blogging about my lameness rather than a bunch of random complaints that I usually do not blog about anyways.. I swear this all makes sense.

2:50am and I am no where near tired. Silly evening manager shifts. Although, I like the fact that I can take my sweet time in getting ready as I don't have to be gone to work til 3:30pm. Speaking of work..

I am not sure why people come to me and ask me for favours when they shot down a favour request from me like 5 days ago. I have finally decided that I would start saying 'NO' a bit more. I am tired of bending over backwards to help others out at work and yet they cannot share that common decency. I will probably cave next month, but until then, I am going to play the itch on the back card and just not be helpful.

Also speaking of work.. This couple that recently moved in is embarrassing me at my place of work. I won't say why just in case someone stumbles across this random blog and is like 'HEY! I know who you're talking about blahblahblah' - That won't happen, but you never know. Anyways, I am just going to say that they are embarrassing me and I cannot believe that I have a connection to them. I don't have a connection to anyone unless I want one.. Well, other than family.. That basically answers the connection conundrum.

I am pretty angry that I had to miss my best friend's house warming shin-dig.. BUT I cannot wait to hear about it because I imagine that it was awesome. I also missed another good friend's birthday pubcrawl because of the weasels from work. Who wouldn't want to go to a 'Mustache Ride' themed party?

I should probably go to my nest and read. I want to finish off this book and start another one. I seem to be reading a bunch of these 'Romance Suspense' novels lately. I hate to admit it, but I really like them. Sometimes the sex scenes are a bit much AND this lady seems to always write the same type of characters.. But what I do like is the crazy scenes and murders she makes up.. Good stuff. And usually any character ever mentioned gets to have their own book sometime.

Blah.. Bed, now.